This is going to be called update and its because there are some things that I want to say about things that have happend over the last few months.
Well first thing is that I started going to a new school back in september for cosmetology and its going ok so far but there have been a few bumps in the road. I still dont feel like I fit in at all cause i am nothing like everyone else. Everyone else is doing things together and more and I feel like I am the one who gets picked last because no one wants to be around me. I dont know. Then I recently started to think about college and all the people I used to know.
some of them really let me down cause I thought that we would all be friends for a long time but two wont tell me what the reason is. that gets on my nerves cause I have been nothing but nice and i have apologized to the ends of the earth but they dont seems to want to care. Im tired of being mis treated and its sad cause Im not going to be that doormate anymore.
I want REAL friends ones who wont hurt me or use me for what they can get out of me. Im sick of that. and I also want to know that no matter what they will always be there and that we will always be firends for life. Thats all i want but lately that seems to much to ask. All I want is some real friends. Im not going to be used anymore.
And to KN we made it 5 years and I couldnt be happier. we have been through so much over the last few months and its been really hard but we are getting there and i know that its going to get better with time. I love you and nothing is going to change that.
Lastly i am just ready to be done with school so that I can move out and start living my life thats my big goal that i cant wait to reach!
